Well, crap. I just read my post from last night & discovered that I wrote that Emma weighs 10 pounds 5 ounces, but this is not true. She weighs 10 pounds 15 ounces, so really she probably weighs 11 pounds. Sorry.

I'm still sick. I woke up this morning to my fever breaking (I was just dripping in sweat, pleasant, I know). I felt better once it broke, but started to feel bad again the closer to my next med dose I got. I took it about 45 minutes ago, but it hasn't kicked in yet, so I'm still feeling bad. My throat is still sore & I have a headache & just feel tired.
Emma is taking a nap, which is good because she's been so grouchy because she was tired. I have a feeling she'll be waking up any minute to eat, so I have the bottle ready & sitting right beside me.
My plan for the rest of the afternoon is to do my internet reading & then watch tv. Thus, I will be a big couch potato all afternoon, but the doctor yesterday did say I needed to rest to get better, so I'm simply following orders....
Although I did just do a ton of laundry & pick up the kitchen....

I'm still sick, but the doctor gave me all sorts of good drugs to help me feel better. Hopefully sooner rather than later. I don't want my sweet girl to get sick :(

Emma had shots on Thursday. She did really well considering & calmed down pretty quickly after the shots. She now weighs 10lbs 5 ounces, which puts her in the 50th percentile for weight, so I guess she's perfectly normal. She's 22 1/2 inches, so 54th percentile in height. She's growing like a weed.

I'm exhausted, so I'm going to head to bed.

I'm sick. Sore throat & fever. Going to the doctor this afternoon. Will update soon.

She's awake & wants to eat again.... Heaven help me...

Difficult Day...

Today has been kind of rough. Emma acts like she wants to eat, starts sucking on her bottle, then stops & falls asleep & stops eating. I take the bottle out of her mouth. She freaks out & wants it again. I put it back in. Repeat. I then tried to replace the bottle with the paci, but that didn't seem to work either. She figured it out. She's a smart one, that kid.
Now, she's sleeping next to me, after having an absolute fit & eating maybe an ounce of milk. Whatever. I guess some days babies just don't eat as much. I'm sure she'll make up for it once she wakes up.
It's hard sometimes because there's nothing I can do for her, yet there's so much I need to do. I had to empty the dishwasher & reload it, so I would be able to pump, so I would be able to feed her. Not to mention the laundry & house cleaning that really need to be done. It's hard to know if I should just keep holding her & trying to help her quit being upset or if I should just let her cry for a little while for my own sanity. The problem is, listening to her cry isn't good for me either. It's hard to know what to do when she's being like that.
I am glad to have a few minutes of silence for the moment. I'm pumping, so really everything I do all day is for her anyway, even indirectly.
We went to the mall with Shelly yesterday who is getting married in less than 4 weeks! (Wow, that's SO SOON!) Emma was horrible the first part of the trip. She is usually such a good shopper, she'll sleep & we'll stop to feed her & she'll eat, & then she'll go back to sleep. Yesterday, she fussed because she had a blow out, so I got to change my first diaper in public yesterday at Macy's - woo-hoo. Then she woke up to eat right after we had finished lunch & we about to go shopping again. So I feed her some & then she falls asleep, so we get going. By the time we're back to shopping, she's woken up & decided she wants to eat more. So I have to feed her again & she falls asleep again. Then repeat. It's really hard to help shop when she keeps wanting to eat all the time, yet doesn't. I'm not sure what her deal is right now. I guess it sounds a lot like today. The day ended up being ok, we got some good shopping done & Shelly bought everything she needed, so that was good. And I bought a new denim skirt & top, so that was exciting.
Anyway, I promised a few pictures from Emma's "photo shoot" on Monday, so here they are!





At least I know she's happy & sweet sometimes! Days like today are just hard :(

Happy (Belated) Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day to all the Mothers! I enjoyed my first mothers day, but didn't get much sleep. Emma was off schedule from a busy Saturday, so she woke up just before 1am wanting to eat (she normally doesn't get up until 7am). Once we got her put back down & went back to sleep, we woke up around 3:30am to a huge boom of thunder along with the power going out for about 3 hours. At that point I realized it wasn't meant to be for us to get much sleep that night!
I got up around 7:15 & ate a yummy breakfast that my sweet husband made me. Then, got ready & off to church. After church we went out to lunch with my parents (mexican - yum!). Came home & attempted a nap, but Emma didn't want to nap unless she was being held, so much for that. Then visited Nene (my grandmother) & off to see David's family at his brother's house. Grilled chicken & yummy strawberry cake. We hung out awhile & took a cute family photo, which was a complete mess to take with our 2 year old nephew running around.
Today I ran an errand & then did lots of laundry & another small project. Oh, and I took Emma's 2 month old pictures! She's 2 months old today! I've gotta go, but I will post a couple 2 month pictures soon.

She's sleeping... :)

Today has been quite good so far!! We woke up just before 7, I fed her & watched American Idol from last night, changed her, got myself ready. She fussed (tired, but fighting sleep), so I put her in the swing & she went to sleep. Did laundry, dishes, fixed dinner & put it in the crock pot (I rock!). I then got the diaper bag ready for our afternoon out. She woke up, so I changed her & fed her. Changed her outfit for the second time. Now, she's sleeping & I made myself lunch & ate it.

I'll be feeding her again around 12 & then we're headed to David's Bridal to help my friend Shelly try on her wedding dress after alterations. Hopefully Emma will fall asleep in the car (she usually does) & be good.

I've thought a little about finding a job & yesterday I was very close to applying for something. Then I remembered how terrible it would be to leave her & how much I would miss her & that I'm just not ready...at least not yet. I guess it's good to know that maybe it will be an option down the road, but at this point she is too young & I'm just not ready to leave her. There's no way I'm sending her to daycare, at least not this young, & my mom can't really quit her job & keep her for about another year. Not to say that is definitely what I will be doing, but it is an option. I really don't know. The money would definitely be nice & really I'm afraid that if I wait too long to use my degree, I won't be able to get a job in my field at all, if I want to. I guess that's the biggest thing: I feel like I need to get a job soonish so I can use my degree down the road. I kind of planned on going to work after my kids are in school, but that will be years from now & I'm afraid it will be too late. I keep praying about it & I know that if I'm supposed to get a job, I will know it & it will almost fall into my lap, letting me know it's meant to be. Plus, the whole childcare thing will be taken care of. I'm sorry this is totally a ramble & doesn't really make any sense. To summarize, I may be open to looking for a job in the future, but as of right now, I'm not ready to leave Emma.

Ok, it's about time to get her bottle ready. Until next time.

Busy life!!! I hardly ever have time to do anything except try to keep my head above water... or wash my hair, whatever the case may be :)
Life these days are a never-ending cycle: eat, change, sleep. Lather, rinse, repeat. She's taking a really good nap this afternoon, thank goodness, & I've had time to clean both bathrooms, dust our room, change our bed, & do some laundry. I'm hearing her waking up, though, so I'll have to cut this short. Let me see if I can find a picture real quick...



Gotta love a girl in shades! Until next time..

This week is thankfully kind of calm! We've been pretty low key the past couple days, today being the busiest. My friend Leah came over & we went to lunch at Applebee's & came back & hung out. I love it when she has days off work!
Just wanted to check in real quick. I took a picture of Emma today in her sunglasses, but need to load them on my computer. I'll try to do that tomorrow!